This book is an amalgamate of influences. It is a construct of ideas, borrowing from the formats of anime, action films, song texts and SF books*, it is a construct exploring what defines the inner self and the parameters of existence, of power. It is written to be a tangle of words, a narrative construction to dwell in. It is written to seduce you to enter, and to live through the events though they are beyond the possibility of belief. It written to draw you close to a main character who is beyond feeling most of the time. Who does not care most of the time. Who has no wishes to fulfill. Who carries and controls ultimate power.

Imagine… all resources, all information data, all power supplies of an entire nation, controlled by a parasite object about the size of a bag: STATE. As STATE needs to be directed by the human it lives off, the Bearer of STATE is by default the absolute ruler; but for decades, no one has been able to bear STATE and a ruthless President has taken over.

The book starts when one of the nation’s most wanted freedom fighters, S., becomes Bearer of STATE. She sets out to install democracy, but she and the people surrounding her have not counted on the infiltration of STATE into the Bearer’s body, her self, her being.
S. has to come to grips with STATE and she has to focus to locate and disable her opponents. She is catapulted from action scenes into visions of white, which capture the different states of self that the power and information structures of STATE induce. Before long, these visions evolve from incidences into a continuum, marking her transition into an object of veneration for some, an object of hate for others.
The existence of a Bearer of STATE inhibits any process of democratization, so this leaves STATE with only one choice. But before S. can accomplish this end, there are more metamorphoses she has to undergo…

TRIGGER warning: this book contains abuse and violent scenes including sexual/sexist ones…